Friday, September 15, 2006
ok..here's e compo i promised 2 write..lol..i tink its a bit weird la..so confusin de e compo..lol. but they are juz my tots.. n pardon my eng..i noe it sux..lol..
Jealousy
This word comes from “jealous”. I checked up the dictionary and found the following meaning:
1. Jealous resentment against a rival, a person enjoying success or advantage,
etc., or against another’s success or advantage itself.
2. Mental uneasiness
from suspicion or fear of rivalry, unfaithfulness, etc., as in love or
aims
3. Vigilance in maintaining or guarding something
4. A jealous
feeling, disposition, state, or mood
I believe many people had felt jealous of others before. For example: siblings get jealous that their parents treat them differently, friends get jealous of each other or lovers get jealous when their partner treat another better.
I am no different from other people. It is difficult to admit of your own flaws but one of my flaws is that I often get jealous of people around me. Sometimes a little jealousy is ok but it is not healthy to let jealousy get the better of u. It may start to hunt you, leading you to do bad things like harming others or those who truly care about you.
Previous watched the 7pm show on channel 8. Apple’s character let her hatred jealousy and past hunt her. Leading her to harm her father and half sister who truly cared about her. At the end of they day, she regretted. So you see, letting jealousy rule you is a disastrous thing. But she is lucky, her family and boyfriend forgave her.
I remember in secondary school I tend to be competitive, always wanting to do better than my friends. But most of the time, my friends end up doing better. Or I’ll compare my life with those around me. Asking myself, “why is life so unfair? They get to do what they like and I’m like a trapped bird”. Funny and foolish isn’t it? Getting jealous of others. Really, what is the point of asking myself all that? Life is never fair, if not how come I have parents but some don’t or I get to eat and grow fat but others are living in poverty? I guess different people lead different lives and like what my friend said, “don’t compare la.” LOL.
Comparing would lead to jealousy. Do u all agree? Once you compare yourself with others and they are better, you would wish to be like them. I get jealous when my friends have better grade than me or when their parents seem more open and that they can communicate with their parents or even get jealous with my sister’s character. LOL. Foolish, yes I know. Though my sister is afraid of my parents but she still pluck up her courage and go forward and ask my parents things. LOL. If it were I, it would have take millions of minutes to do that. But come to think of it, get jealous for? I chose to be this way, I can just don’t think of anything and talk things out with them. But I still chose to be a coward. Sigh..
I don’t know what is my purpose to writing this; maybe just want to clear my head. But in conclusion, there is no point in being jealous over others. Because, life is NEVER fair no matter how many times you say it and you, yourself chose the path you take in life. From choosing to study hard for exams to choosing your life partner to how you want to lead your life. Feeling jealous show that you regret decisions you’ve made. So when you start feeling that sour feeling in your heart, remember you get jealous of someone but there may also be someone who is jealous of you! And remember to be happy with what you have. =)
thinking of you @ 10:53 AM
Thursday, September 14, 2006
baby..GOOD LUCK FOR UR PAPER TML..!! ^^ thx for 2day, reali reali exjoyed it though didnt go out or wat..lol..muacks.
baby came find me 2day reached abt 8.50am lol..early hor..muacks. den i made him promise he'll study for tml paper..den e whole day was buggin him 2 study la..haha..yeap watched tv. den ard 10+ went NTUC to buy food cos hungry ma..den baby fry e food..lol..left some food for later cos bought quite a lot..yeap..den slowly enjoy lo..not bad..lol..though was finger food bt ya..^^ thx baby hehe..den aft tt need 2 go down fetch sis le ma..den went there she haven come out..zzz..but went NUTC again 2 buy ice cream lol..den went hm 2 try 2 eat fin e rest of e food..lol..
was reali a nice feeling la..^^ so happy.. drag him 2 take pic wif me..lol..den forced him 2 study oso..yeap..he say he study fin le..haix..hope he reali got la..lol..he promised me a B lol..but aiya as long he he tried his all can le..^^
oh..finally gave him tt shirt..!! lol..he cld fit in sia..lol..but den too small la..haha..nvm let him keep ba..lol..anyway its a nice design..next time see got nice design muz rem his size le..lol..
HAPPY 43MTHS ANNI BABY.. i love you always..!! thx for spendin 43mths wif me.. though many times i was upset but its ok..there were many happy memories too. =) i'll treasure e good n bad times. muacks..!
thinking of you @ 6:53 PM
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
haix..results is out..!! omg..i deproved again..!! zzz..but den i dun feel tt upset le ba..yeap..ppl say its ok i did my best le..but den as usual its not my best..lol..i noe i've been slackin whole sem. haix..but e onli module i did my hmwk i actually got a C..!! e lowest..!! how did tt happened? n my worst modules which i totally didnt understand got an A?! actually i tink i deserved those marks la..but den i dun tink my biz law, biz acct shld get tt grade?! biz law got B not even B+ i even expected an A. n i did study hard for it..did hmwk oso..though not every wk but ya..i still understood it e best..!! guess i was nv good in arguement kind of subj..lol..even my hist n ss oso nv get wat i expected lol..suan le..GPA dropped again..!! argh..!! sianx lo..how 2 get into NTU or SMU like tt?! haix..GPA keep droppin..n keep deprovin..
here's e breakdown:
Biz finance : B *expected cos proj n ICAs got B n Cs*
Biz law : B *argh~~!*
Biz acct : C *cant believe it..!!*
costing : A *SO UNEXPECTED! cos nv do tut n nv reali understand e cher*
tax : B+ *unexpected cos half e time im not listenin 2 mr chee n dun do tut*
Jap : B *expected n pretty happy wif it liao..yeap*
ICT : C+ *LMAO! expected cos i hated it..plus proj work stinks..sigh..sorry 2 my grp tink i cost their marks.. anyway im glad i dun have 2 see my cher again..*
as expected poh eng results were e best..!! lol..congrats..^^ i tink she did worked for it la..not all is luck ^^ n she is pretty smart..lol..*tt doesn't change e fact tt i wanna kill her..lol..* anyway poh eng, all e best for e rest of poly life..!! hehe..teach me how u study leh..lol..yr3 work 2gether wor..!! lol..dun wan 2 regret again..lol..dun wan 2 say muz study hard for next sem cos i nv did tt..zzz..lol..but ya..^^
lol..mornin woke up found vinc cousin sms 7.20am lol..wishin me good luck 4 collectin results..wah he's like e onli person hu did tt..lol..a bit sad baby didnt wish me..but well..its ok..i got his GL wish during exams ^^. thx cousin hehe..look like we cant watch our lil man 2gether liao..lol..nvm shall watch other movie again ba..lol..plus ur shoppin trip..lol..
wanna write sth on e topic "jealousy" lol..shall write abt it in next entry ba..lol.. suddenly feel like writin tot n reflection..lol..shall post in next entry..yeap..cya ^^
thinking of you @ 9:34 AM
Friday, September 08, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMELIA DAR..!! =) dun noe if u received my sms last nite..lol..hope u did ba.. miss ya girl..hope u had a great 1. hmm.. meaning in wateva way u like b it a simple normal daily life yet receivin msg fr frdx n fam or outin out n have fun. =) true tt as u get older u'll get more responsibilities..but i noe n believe u can handle them =) stay happy yea? lol..miss ya n rem to smile dis big ^___________________^ like u asked me to. lol.. love ya.
2day met xw jie at amk lib..suppose pei her study but end up chattin instead..my dear sis went along oso..lol..she was lamin all e way..lol..but its good 2 laugh n joke ard ^^ hmm..den aft tt sis had 2 go sch ma..i felt bad leavin jie like tt..some more she dun noe where 2 go..so i ask her come my house lo..n she did..lol..suppose 2 study but end up we were lookin at my old pictures..lol..of my fam..haha..n were laughin at some of them..oo..i found 1 pic of vinc cousin young tt time pic..lol..but i tink i looked more toot la..lol..anyway still enjoyed lookin at e pics. ^^ den je left ard 5+. yeap..she said she did read a lil..hope she did ba..i feel bad disturbin her =( all e best for prelims jie..!! n for e rest of my frdx in jc ALL E BEST!! miss jie..she said aft her prelims have a proper outin..lol..okok..sure..!! hehe..
baby exams oso comin le..haix..worry for him..zzz..hope he'll study veri hard wor..ya but well..more impt tt he did his best?! yeap..jia you baby..!! muacks..see u next wk..!!
thinking of you @ 8:13 PM
Thursday, September 07, 2006
2day baby n yi mei suppose come my place..but as expected yi mei sure wake up late..lol..but was still waitin for her sms la..but lol..80% of me knew she sure not comin again..lol..mayb she read dis sure hurt..but hor i was disappointed oso la..i reali reali was waitin for 2day 2come de leh..den both of them didnt come..sian diao la..den im left all alone again..zzz..was reali upset la..!!
had a small quarrel wif him dis mornin..anyway suan le..he went 2 his cousin house do proj le..but guess e proj a while can fin le ba..den aft tt sure gamin de le..oh well..dun talk abt him..
2day dun noe is 2 upset or wat..end up doin house work sia..lol..actually mother onli ask me 2 vacuum e floor..but she say evening she come back she change e bedsheet..den dun noe wat rm she wanna change oso..den i help her la..but her bed i onli took off e sheets..cos i dun noe if i shld change into wat oso..lol..but i changed my own bed sheets..!! lol..feel a sense of accomplishment..lol..den vacuum whole house..n mop e floor oso..lol..tink i ate wrong med 2day le..lol..sigh..
kk..i gtg 2 fetch my sis back fr sch le..lol..
thinking of you @ 3:33 PM
